Project Time

I have a growing list of projects I want/need to complete in the near future.

Side note: I haven't made any fun or exciting announcements but I am 15.5wks pregnant! :) So most of these projects revolve around that fact.

House projects:
-Organize and downsize toys in the house

-Switch rooms when we know what gender this baby is- two kids will be sharing.

-Rearrange downstairs and possibly reduce what we have

Sewing Projects:
-Make maternity pants. I have an awesome friend who is letting me borrow some of hers and they will work great for now. But I usually gain some weight in my thighs and butt and then those pants won't fit anymore.

-Make a Ring Sling. I'm going to pretty much follow the look of the Sukura Bloom brand rather than the Maya sling. I'm planning on using the sling for the tiny newborn days (if I like it). I have a tendency to have a lot of shoulder and back pain with holding/carrying/wearing my kids so hopefully that won't happen. If it does I will just go back to using my Moby Wrap.

-I have material to make Rya a blanket and I need to make the one I made Titus bigger since he's out-growing it.

Christmas Projects:
-I'm going to make broom stick horses for the kids- they pretend everything is a horse anyway so this should be fun for them.

-Crochet washclothes and hot pads for some family

-Sugar scrubs for some family.

This should all be fun and keep me VERY busy. Especially on top of everything else I have going on...ya know raising two little kids and all :)

Motherhood musings

Parenting.

It's something I dreamed of starting at a young age. All I ever consistently wanted to be was a wife and mother. I had other career aspirations but they didn't stick around very long.

I have that dream now. I'm the wife of an amazing man and I'm the mother to two amazing kids.

Sometimes though, in the middle of a hard season I wonder why I wanted to be a mother so bad. Don't get me wrong. I LOVE my kids. They are awesome. I am truly blessed to be their mother and have the opportunity to raise them. But there have been seasons that are hard! Baby days and lack of sleep can be hard but to me that's not the really hard part. It's teaching them to obey the first time every time, all the way and with a happy heart. To love their sibling instead of acting selfishly. To not argue with each other but especially with me or their Daddy. (Oh goodness the arguing! Drives me up a wall!!)

I'm in a rougher season right now where I find myself begging for time alone or my man to come home at night. I'm drained at the end of each day and pretty much go to bed as soon as the kids are down. I'm grateful for each weekend and try to keep it as laid back as possible.

But during all if this? God is still good. He is still faithful. He loves me and He loves my kids. He gives grace for each day and for each battle. I'm learning to rely on Him even more. To find the joy he still provides throughout my day. I'm so grateful that He is on my side. I don't have to do this alone. I try to and fail....miserably.

I'm so grateful for the way God has been speaking truth into my life. Through friends and their transparency, blog posts, His Word, music.

I've realized a few things recently while going through this season:

My kids need Jesus. They can only change their behavior so much. They need Jesus to change their hearts. I'm really seeing this with Titus. He understands quite a bit we are trying to be more intentional with explaining his need for Jesus.

I need Jesus. I need alone time with Jesus daily! I need to hear music that praises Jesus more than any other music. I need His wisdom to teach and guide these little people.

I'm excited to see how God works in their lives and also in mine. It's a fun, exciting, HARD journey but I wouldn't have it any other way!