Another Announcement

Cutting to the chase- I ended up having a miscarriage Friday. It definitely sucks but I'm praising God it wasn't more physically taxing. I don't think I was very far along, which I think aided in my body's ability to do it all on its own.

I'm definitely sad that I have to wait to meet this little one, but I am at peace about it...usually. Bryan made a good point: we are sad for us but not for the baby. They didn't suffer, and didn't have to experience this fallen world. I'm sure I will have my moments. Part of me feels a little numb. So working through this with my loving Father.

Praising God for His goodness and grace!

Announcement and Ramblings

The Announcement: we are adding to our family again! The third (and last) mini free will be joining us between Christmas time and the middle of January!! We are so happy and excited and extremely blessed! I'm also scared out of my friggin mind! Some days it seems like I can barely handle the two I have already been blessed with and to add another one to that...really??? BUT overall the excitement and thankfulness win over the fear.

I have always viewed this blog as some sort of platform for I don't know what. I barely post because I'm self-conscious about what to say. I want it to sound just right and to be helpful, or entertaining. But my friend (Hi Heather!) pointed out that this could just be a journal of sorts, a way to record what's going on in life and what I'm thinking or feeling. So true!! If people like it and want to read it, great! If not? Oh well! I cant still look back and see how God was working in my life. So here's to a new chapter of blogging- to writing what I want, when I want and not worrying about the attention I could get from doing so. Hopefully this means more posts, but I'm not sure that's a guarantee. :o)

With the baby coming my brain is going INSANE!!! I started making a "Baby need" list the day I found out I am expecting. I am constantly making plans in my head of what needs to happen in our family and in our house before this baby comes. Because we all know this baby will be here NEXT WEEK! (Or that's at least what my brain thinks and therefore is puts a crazy urgent label on EVERYTHING!) 

Here's some of the stuff that needs to happen before this baby comes:

-Rya NEEDS to wean- sooner the better! I know there's the option of tandem nursing and no offense to those that want to or have done that but I'm not interested. I would like my boobs to myself for a short time before they are hijacked again for at least a year. (I willingly nurse so maybe hijack is too strong of a word??)

-Both Titus and Rya need to sleep through the night. Yes, what were we thinking wanting to add another sleep interrupter to this craziness?? :) Titus wakes up 1-3x a night and just climbs in bed with us. If we sleep through it, no harm no foul. However, he usually wakes me up. We are going to make him a bed on our floor and teach him to sleep there if he wants to be close to us. Our bed is not big enough so Mr. Titus and his elbows and horizontal sleeping. I've found that if Rya has a later bedtime (9ish) she will usually sleep straight through to about 6-630. I'm going to keep rolling with that because not getting up with her is AWESOME!

-The bedrooms in my house are a mess and NEED to be cleaned, straightened, and organized! I'm sick of random piles of crap EVERYWHERE! Totally our fault that it's like that. And that as a family we live out of laundry baskets. It just needs to change. It's ridiculous and I'm over it. (But still too tired to do anything about it, so here I sit and rant...)

-My housework needs to get on a schedule/routine and I NEED to actually do it. It's not that hard, right? Oh wait, yes it is...apparently...because I suck at it. The clutter hot spots in my house are the stairs (can we say safety hazard??), our bedrooms, and what I call the diaper station. My kitchen is also rather annoying at dirty dishes keep popping up and I don't know how to get rid of them. ;o) My pantry is also rather annoying. My kids like to rearrange the items on the shelves and then there's item that are a no-no for them to mess with. So it's just a hot mess. Although I can find everything. Not sure anyone can, though!! 

I have decided that I start nesting super early, but I just have no energy to do anything about it until 2nd tri or later, which makes me pretty crabby. :o)

On to other things! Bryan has a new job! He now works at LocalEdge which is a huge company! He is working in the web design division as a web project coordinator. He says it's mostly clerical and kind of boring but it's a step in the door, higher pay, great people, and gives him opportunities to learn about web design, which he would LOVE to get into. He schedule is even a little better...830-430. He hasn't really left on time yet, but when he does it will be great! His position is a new one to help alleviate some of the work from the web designers. So right now he's playing catch up. Once that's over I'm sure he will be able to leave on time more often. 

Okay I'm done. I could keep going because that means I could continue to sit on my butt and essentially do nothing but my kitchen is ridiculous and my Mom-in-Love is coming over later and I don't want to have to hang my head in shame.